Psychotic Thoughts

I spent the night with R.  It’s odd that that’s something I used to be completely unable to do.

I hope this doesn’t turn in to a bitching post but he’s beginning to annoy me more and more.  Sex is all about him and he really doesn’t get that I have no interest in it at the moment.  He makes fun of my weight.  I’m sensitive about it.  A lot of the gain came from antipsychotics and I don’t think he understands that.  The thing that annoyed me most though was his decison to clean my bathroom.  It wasn’t dirty and didn’t need it and what he meant to be helpful came across as a criticism.

I don’t know how much longer I can stand this.  I need a friend but not one who makes me feel so bad so much of the time.