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		<title>A Bitching Post</title>
		<description><![CDATA[I spent the night with R.  It&#8217;s odd that that&#8217;s something I used to be completely unable to do.
I hope this doesn&#8217;t turn in to a bitching post but he&#8217;s beginning to annoy me more and more.  Sex is all about him and he really doesn&#8217;t get that I have no interest in it at [...]<img alt="" border="0" src="http://stats.wordpress.com/b.gif?host=psychoticthoughts.com&blog=7610810&post=635&subd=thevoiceofrachel&ref=&feed=1" />]]></description>
		<link>http://psychoticthoughts.com/2009/11/09/a-bitching-post/</link>
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		<title>Revealing Myself</title>
		<description><![CDATA[Today I had a psychotherapy assessment.  It was odd in that I found myself revealing more than I expected.  I seemed to get on well with the assessor but I guess they&#8217;re trained to put you at ease.  I think it could be helpful if everything works out.
Today I rather stupidly went in to placement [...]<img alt="" border="0" src="http://stats.wordpress.com/b.gif?host=psychoticthoughts.com&blog=7610810&post=632&subd=thevoiceofrachel&ref=&feed=1" />]]></description>
		<link>http://psychoticthoughts.com/2009/11/07/revealing-myself/</link>
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		<title>Love and Fear</title>
		<description><![CDATA[R and I have now been having a relationship for a couple of months.  It&#8217;s not real and that&#8217;s my fault.  He seemed to be getting moody and annoyed around me and I was terrified of losing my one friend so I gave him what he claimed he wanted and agreed to a relationship.  I [...]<img alt="" border="0" src="http://stats.wordpress.com/b.gif?host=psychoticthoughts.com&blog=7610810&post=630&subd=thevoiceofrachel&ref=&feed=1" />]]></description>
		<link>http://psychoticthoughts.com/2009/11/05/love-and-fear/</link>
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		<title>It&#8217;s been a while&#8230;</title>
		<description><![CDATA[It&#8217;s been a while since I last wrote anything here.  Things haven&#8217;t changed a lot.  I&#8217;m currently under the crisis team (again).  I took a paracetamol overdose on Monday.  I had no other drugs as the crisis team have them.  At the time I took them I really wanted to die but after about half [...]<img alt="" border="0" src="http://stats.wordpress.com/b.gif?host=psychoticthoughts.com&blog=7610810&post=627&subd=thevoiceofrachel&ref=&feed=1" />]]></description>
		<link>http://psychoticthoughts.com/2009/11/04/its-been-a-while/</link>
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		<title>A Return</title>
		<description><![CDATA[It&#8217;s been a while since I last posted.  A few things have happened and they haven&#8217;t helped my mental health.
Firstly, the council have written to me telling me that I&#8217;m not actually entitled to housing benefit so they&#8217;ve stopped it.  It means things are going to be tight financially and I&#8217;ve no idea how I&#8217;m [...]<img alt="" border="0" src="http://stats.wordpress.com/b.gif?host=psychoticthoughts.com&blog=7610810&post=625&subd=thevoiceofrachel&ref=&feed=1" />]]></description>
		<link>http://psychoticthoughts.com/2009/08/23/a-return/</link>
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		<title>Guilt and Fear</title>
		<description><![CDATA[At the moment I have an overwhelming feeling of guilt.  It&#8217;s an odd sensation as I don&#8217;t think I feel guilty about anything in particular other than my existence.  I feel guilty for taking up space and resources.  I feel guilty for being useless and a failure.
I don&#8217;t know where this feeling is coming from.  [...]<img alt="" border="0" src="http://stats.wordpress.com/b.gif?host=psychoticthoughts.com&blog=7610810&post=618&subd=thevoiceofrachel&ref=&feed=1" />]]></description>
		<link>http://psychoticthoughts.com/2009/07/26/guilt-and-fear/</link>
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		<title>BDSM Boredom</title>
		<description><![CDATA[I think I&#8217;ve reached my bdsm saturation point again.  I&#8217;ve done nine sessions in the last three weeks (which is probably too many) and I no longer feel in the mood.  I wasn&#8217;t happy with the last two, both of which I topped in.  In the first the man was some kind of supermasochist who [...]<img alt="" border="0" src="http://stats.wordpress.com/b.gif?host=psychoticthoughts.com&blog=7610810&post=612&subd=thevoiceofrachel&ref=&feed=1" />]]></description>
		<link>http://psychoticthoughts.com/2009/07/10/bdsm-boredom/</link>
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		<title>Drugged and Drowsy</title>
		<description><![CDATA[It&#8217;s been a while since I wrote a post and one of the reasons is I feel so drowsy at the moment.  I saw the psychiatrist afterI stopped the Aripirazole and he seemed to understand why I&#8217;d done it however, as the voices were becoming problematic again, he has now prescribed Risperidone.
The morning after I [...]<img alt="" border="0" src="http://stats.wordpress.com/b.gif?host=psychoticthoughts.com&blog=7610810&post=609&subd=thevoiceofrachel&ref=&feed=1" />]]></description>
		<link>http://psychoticthoughts.com/2009/07/09/drugged-and-drowsy/</link>
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		<title>Drug Free and Surprisingly Happy</title>
		<description><![CDATA[It&#8217;s been six days now since I stopped the Aripiprazole.  I still haven&#8217;t told the psychiatrist but in some ways I feel much better.  I can sit still now and I don&#8217;t feel like I want to climb out of my skin anymore.  Unfortunately, the voices are back to being loud and aggressive and I&#8217;m [...]<img alt="" border="0" src="http://stats.wordpress.com/b.gif?host=psychoticthoughts.com&blog=7610810&post=603&subd=thevoiceofrachel&ref=&feed=1" />]]></description>
		<link>http://psychoticthoughts.com/2009/07/02/drug-free-and-surprisingly-happy/</link>
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		<title>Stopping Aripiprazole.</title>
		<description><![CDATA[I&#8217;ve decided to stop Aripiprazole.  I know I shouldn&#8217;t do this without consulting my psychiatrist but I can no longer take the constant feeling of restlessness, the fact I can&#8217;t sit still for a minute, my leg bounces or I start to rock without consciously wanting to.  I feel the need to pace all the [...]<img alt="" border="0" src="http://stats.wordpress.com/b.gif?host=psychoticthoughts.com&blog=7610810&post=600&subd=thevoiceofrachel&ref=&feed=1" />]]></description>
		<link>http://psychoticthoughts.com/2009/06/27/stopping-aripiprazole/</link>
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